tadaa

2012-01-03T21:31:00.002+08:00

I fall too fast, crash too hard, forgive too easy, and care too much.

2012-01-03T15:49:00.003+08:00

I’m the writer who lost his purpose

The end of this novel, how am I supposed to write it

I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I keep writing these 3 words.

Setting the warn out pen on the old paper strained in tears

This story can’t be happy or sad

I will rewrite it again, our story will not end

I will bury the fact that reality is seeping into my skin for now

I rewrite it once again, the start beginning with you and I smiling happily

In case you will leave me, the background is a small room without an exit

I kiss you as if there is nothing wrong

I can’t leave your sweet presence

There is no such thing as an end for us

Even today, I’m in the story of you and I that hasn’t ended,

But it is all just a wish still.... in fiction.

2011-10-23T22:35:00.002+08:00

You don't only belong to yourself, you know...

There isn't anything in the world that belongs to only yourself.

Everyone has connections to someone else and shares something with them through these.

That is why you can never be free. That is also why it is amusing, sad, and dear.

2011-09-29T04:17:00.007+08:00

To be frank, I used to cut myself, Suicide etc... but now death is something I would not want or think of anymore. 私は死の恐怖である. The moment you feel like your time is running out, All you would had in your mind was to live longer. Its true eventually we dies but before we do, live your life to the fullest otherwise you will regret it. Life is short and we only live once. Life doesn't give you a second chance to live again as a human being. We won't know who? or what? we will be after we pass on. So death is not something you could play with~ whatever I want to say is, treasure it before it's too late. Hopefully I'm able to fulfill my dream before I sleep peacefully in my coffin.

2011-09-29T04:06:00.004+08:00

I hate TRAGIC ENDING

In any kind of stories..

2011-09-23T19:46:00.006+08:00

When a person loves someone of the same sex, and they tell them

about their feelings, that usually spells the end of their friendship.

2011-06-27T13:26:00.019+08:00

I'm being cold not because I want to...

是因为从小就没。。。

所以不知道什么是温暖

也不知道该怎么给你要的温暖。

I know that nobody will give a fuck for people like me.

It been this way since young and I should be used to it by now

but recently I feel..... cold........ and.... lonely.....

2011-06-26T00:33:00.015+08:00

I tried so hard to make you disappear from my mind and yet you appear before me again!

fuck the past fuck the past fuck the past fuck the past fuck the past fuck the past fuck the past

fuck the past fuck the past fuck the past fuck the past fuck the past fuck the past fuck the past!!!

No matter how hard I tried to erase it or avoid it, it doesn't go away. All the bad memories

stick to me like a fucking glue!... It's feel like I'm like a bird trap in a cage wishing

to be free someday~ Will I ever be free?

2011-06-05T21:01:00.005+08:00

Why do I always do this?

I fall in love with someone,

then I get all of these messed up

emotions then I end up hurting

myself from the feeling that I created

and then I feel brokenhearted.

And It's always end with my fault.

........................................

2011-05-26T23:58:00.003+08:00

Do you know what irked me the most? Is people like you that meddle in people business.

Don't interfere when you're not needed. I don't need unnecessary shit. Fuck adults seriously!

I thought you understand my pain... I guess not... seem like my words didn't reach you deep

enough for you to understand. Maybe blood is needed to be sacrifice to show my thoughts....

2011-03-16T20:44:00.002+08:00

being alone is scary but being abandon is scarier.....

2011-03-16T01:32:00.013+08:00

I tried to be emotionless. I tried to be heartless. I tried to be insensitive. I tried not to notice. I tried not to talk so much just to stay away from people because I don't wanna get involve with unnecessary emotion and this emotionless feelings already devoured me before I even realize it and turned me into an extremely cold person. It's like I'm not who I used to be anymore~

2011-02-17T06:06:00.007+08:00

Everyone has a past they don't want to remember.

It would be nice if it'll go away easily~

I will never be free from this torture

no matter how hard I try to forget it

because I've been bound by my past.

Je suis désolé

2011-02-17T04:41:00.007+08:00

Without you, I think I would have ended up in jail or somewhere in the streets or even fucked my life worse than before. You're right, all this while I've only think of myself and I didn't think of what you're going through which I came to realize I was wrong and understand what you guys went through and felt really remorse on what I did. I have been thinking....... but everything seem too late for me to atone.

Dad, I'm grateful that you were there for me even though we fight sometimes and our conversation don't click, you were still there to show me to the right path when I walked onto the wrong one.

すべてをありがとう๐

2011-02-13T23:35:00.011+08:00

I admit I'm a hotheaded person then why do you still always want to do things that will piss me off? when you already knew I wont like it and you still do it?! Why can't you let me live a simple and peaceful life without all this shit!? and when I speak out my opinions, you point faults at me WTF? we really have a serious communication problem. When people don't click, they can't communicate and this is the relationship we have now. I have no words to describe you because I don't know what to say anymore. Ya ya ya you're always right and I'm always wrong. Parent are always right and the child is always wrong.... fuck!

Busybody mean: "A person who pries into or meddles in the affairs of others" This is what you're doing right now aunt! Stay out of it! you're not my mother, You're just my dad's sister and the fact is we are not close so don't interfere with my life!! don't make me get serious about this matter otherwise I don't know what I'm gonna do to you when I'm seriously pissed off and provoked.

Ps: POLY Everything POLY because of "POLY", ITE was looked down!

私は自分の生活にうんざりしています๐

2011-02-10T03:30:00.004+08:00

私は風邪を感じる๐ ๐ ๐

Your Beauty Kills

2010-12-08T07:12:00.004+08:00

Is this coming to an end?
Goodbye my longing love because
I'm no longer yearning for you like I used to anymore.
should I smile or should I grief? Am I ready to let go yet? I don't know.
I haven't take the initiative yet and I started this love thing and
I'm in pain because of it now and sometimes I try not to hate myself
for everything I never said when you were here. What done is done
if time could rewind, I'd do what I should do and never leave with regrets.
I will be lying if I said I've gotten over you... Its true that I've not
because the feelings I had for you is still irreplaceable~
I got lost in my own world falling for you and was rip by my own feelings
You can't help to who you are attracted to and that's why I'm suffering now
If we hadn't met, This will not be happening but I was still glad I met you
私が会った私は実際に嬉しい
ありがとう ๐

2010-12-07T16:06:00.001+08:00

Je souffre en raison de vous. J'avais gardé ce sentiment pendant une si longue heure maintenant sans vous le notant et je réalise que ce sentiment que j'ai pris pour vous se fane lentement à partir de moi maintenant. Je ne sais pas ce qui est erroné avec moi, peut-être mon esprit et le coeur est fatigué de la noyade dans ma douleur pensant à vous journalier.
I know I'm nothing to you but I still
wish you could give a damn about me.